I plan for contingencies. It's part of my nature... Thinking things through to their logical conclusions... Anticipating turn of events, however unlikely. Admittedly, I'd thought that consummating my relationship with Layla anytime soon fell on the more unlikely end of the spectrum, but it's nevertheless a possibility I considered... One that I'd prepared for, to an extent, by grabbing a handful of condoms during a trip to the Compound back in September.
Despite the concession, though, I'm not sure I ever really thought we'd get this far. I thought I'd screw things up long before we go to this point, because... Well, that's also part of my nature. Instead, here we are. I'm about to be her first.... Her only, if I believed in happily ever afters... And I'm not sure that I do. But here, in the moment, I want to.
Heh. Must be the holiday. I'm not usually so terrifyingly optimistic.
Nothing short of encouraged by Layla's response, Jamie twisted underneath her, lifting her, slightly, so that he could lay her down on the bed. He hovered over her for a second, planting one last, heated kiss to her mouth before he moved lower, intent on doing away with the last of her clothes.
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Despite the concession, though, I'm not sure I ever really thought we'd get this far. I thought I'd screw things up long before we go to this point, because... Well, that's also part of my nature. Instead, here we are. I'm about to be her first.... Her only, if I believed in happily ever afters... And I'm not sure that I do. But here, in the moment, I want to.
Heh. Must be the holiday. I'm not usually so terrifyingly optimistic.
Nothing short of encouraged by Layla's response, Jamie twisted underneath her, lifting her, slightly, so that he could lay her down on the bed. He hovered over her for a second, planting one last, heated kiss to her mouth before he moved lower, intent on doing away with the last of her clothes.