If he was at all disappointed that she'd let go, he didn't show it, too caught up in her question to pay much mind to anything else. A part of him, though, buried somewhere behind all the doubt and self-loathing, really wished she hadn't. If nothing else, she was a distraction from all the water.

"I thought-- No, I knew I was right in wanting to die. I'd planned it. I was... methodical. I weighed all of my options, considered the pros and cons of each of them. I didn't just get up on that ledge on a whim. I was there because I made a decision to kill myself. The clarity was in dying, so, no, I can't... I can't just separate the two, because they're intrinsically linked."